It's Been A While...

It’s been a while since my last post. And I can explain. It’s not you, it’s me. HA! I’ve always wanted to say that. But seriously to be totally honest with you I really haven’t felt like myself lately. And I won’t use this too much as a mind dump for all my problems because to be honest, no one really cares about other people’s issues, nor do they want to read about them. I don’t really want to call it a funk, and nothing bad has happened to cause me to completely drop off the face of the earth like I have lately. I tend to do that from time to time anyway. I will chalk it up to a complete change in my life and probably part of the process of getting over a long relationship. After the initial shock of ending that relationship, I got back to the regular gato negro, going out, being crazy and having fun again. What I will say is it’s good to be me again. But after about 4 months of "doing work" I started to think, ok what now? I had a life that was going one direction, and almost overnight it’s completely different. I was in a mindset that I was going to live in Tampa, work in my current job, and marry the person I was with. When I started to evaluate my life I realized that I had all the options in the world available to me because my former life was no more. A married friend of mine said to me, “You have a second chance at life that most people would kill for,” both a funny and true statement. And that’s the dilemma… I’ve always been very decisive with every decision I’ve ever made. I make a decision and go with it. But for some reason I’m not sure what to do. I’m trying to decide to stay here in Tampa or move back to NYC, if I stay here do I want to stay at my current job (which I have been miserable at lately)? I’m taking my time with the decision and it’ll hit me one day and I’ll run with it like I always do. I’m sure I’m not the only late twenty something who has or is going thru this. I think it’s pretty normal. Or at least that’s what I’ll tell myself. But anyway, on with the post, like I said no one really cares about other people’s problems, or maybe that’s just me, HA.

So what have I been up to lately?...

1)I took two weeks off of drinking. There were three reasons why. When I looked at the amount of money I had spent on alcohol the last few months I was blown away. I realized I could feed all the starving kids in Africa for a year on the amount I have spent at bars in 3 months. Not that I would feed children in Africa, I don’t care about kids in Africa. Survival of the fittest I say. I also needed to get going on my training program for my race in July. And then I also needed to clear my head so I could think about the aforementioned things that have been on my mind. It was both a great and horrible experience. I LOVE alcohol and more specifically craft beer. I wanted nothing more than to grab a dog fish head or something of similar taste and take down a few, or ten. It was a true test of my will power but I made it. The good part about it was my body felt absolutely great and it really helped me get on track with my training for the Boilermaker.

I’m up to running 8 miles now with a month and a half left until the race which is only a 15k so I’m looking to CRUSH IT! The other positive was the amount of money I was able to conserve in those 14 LONG days. I bought myself a tablet with those funds. To celebrate my 14 days of sobriety I went out Saturday night and got shit faced drunk and if I remember correctly, I think I danced a little bit at Mangroves. I can neither confirm nor deny this. I also vaguely remember hitting on a married woman. Again, I can neither confirm nor deny this act. Congratulations me!... Sunday was hell.

2)I really got into the show Mad Men. I have never watched it before but decided to pull it up on Netflix. It has quickly jumped into my top three favorite shows. That show makes me wish I was a young adult in the mid 60’s. It has a great story line and a lot of good looking women.

January Jones has also quickly moved into my top three hottest celebrity crushes. The other two being Marissa Miller and Eva Mendez. Those are three totally different styles of women but I’ve never really had a type to begin with. My only type I guess would be hot? Back to Mad Men… Beyond a great story line and hot women, the reason I like the show is the people. If they are correctly portraying the 60’s, men were real men, and women were women, as well as “HO’S FO SHO, I guess some things never change, HA. What I mean by that is that men in the show act like real men. They “suited up” for everything and they weren’t pussies. I wear a suit every day for work. I wouldn’t mind wearing them out everywhere if that was normal these days. It looks good. They didn’t bitch about things and worked hard. More people these days need that mentality. The women dressed up for everything. They wore dresses and were lady like. Don’t get me wrong I enjoy a fit woman in yoga pants everywhere I go but at the same time there is something about a woman that is wearing professional attire or a nice dress that I can’t explain. Everyone is too informal these days. That’s one thing I like about going back to NYC. Wherever you go people are dressed in suits and professional attire like they just came from work, because they just came from work. The other thing that I found interesting about the show, was the amount of alcohol that is consumed, even at work. I would love to just take out a bottle of scotch and drink in the office, wait, I can and have done that. But not very often. And lastly there is a lot of hooking up in the show. That always makes for great television. Was it a requirement in the 60's to cheat on your wife? That part I think is a little exaggerated but what do I know, I wasnt born until 1983. Anyway, great show and I’d recommend it if you haven’t seen it.

There are a few other things but this post has gotten long enough as it is. With this weekend being a long weekend, I will for sure be getting after it and will probably have some stories to share. Sober me doesn’t have as many crazy things to share in my blog. So for the sake of keeping you entertained I will not take any hiatus’s from drinking anytime soon. Respek.